Again I failed. Because I had to know if you had considered the
possibility of losing yor girl to the next man. And again your answer
was vague and uninformative. So in my mind I know you don't care. The
thought of me with someone else should send you reeling. And if you
can't verbalize that, your demeanor would still be unable to mask it.
The emotions that I assumed must truly have been just my imagination
running away with me. That being said, the third time will be a charm,
b/c, I will keep in mind the depth of your unavailability and the pain
that it causes me. While I know it's my issues with abandonment that
keep me in an emotional pursuit of the you that now I know I will
never have. I can't seem to stop myself. It's like an addiction. I'm
thinking of texting you right now. And you won't respond in the way
that I want you to. But I guess I need the straw to break the camel's
back. Some action or words that activate my fuck you gene. Something
that totally changes the way I look at you. But I know you won't
provide that b/c it's what I need and you seem to be incapable of
giving me what I need. Yet I still seek the validation of your love.
How sick and twisted of me.
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