announcing the distance until day 3 is complete. I don't want to be
with him less nor has the stupidity of love waned. But my perspective
is shifting. As I continue to review the reality of our
'relationship', it becomes increasingly clear that I'm fighting for
something that doesn't exist. A happily ever after that would not come
to fruition, even if we had the appropriate titles. My mind is
separating from my heart and taking a stand. This stand will prevent
me from making the mistakes of the past. I will no longer seek out
relationships based on glimpses into who a man can be, but I will
focus my selection process on the measure that the man displays
through his day to day actions. I know that within me is the ability
to draw this man to me, if I so choose to take on that endeavor. But I
vowed I would not do that again. Because two tick marks in the loss
column of me vs marriage has shown me that his presence will not be
enough. His actions would still have to line up or I will shut off and
release myself in due time. So I really do feel the progress and that
makes the pain of the loss a little easier to digest. I also feel
proud of myself that I am putting my best interest above someone
else's. And that is definitely a relationship road less traveled for
me. Day 3 here I come :)
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