Fwd: Drama Queen

> I have never fancied myself as much of an actress, especially since
> I am probably THE Worst liar ever (if not I'll do until he/she gets
> here). But I have reviewed some of the history between the cute boi
> and myself and I have to be honest in that I have gone overboard
> with overly emotional internal responses on more than a few
> occasions. I of course would never admit this openly, but I figure
> writing about it here is at least a step in the right direction.
> Especially with his accent, I have misunderstood things many times
> and quit him in my mind only to find out later that I had inferred
> something that was not the case or mistook a word or three. So
> I think in addition to my quiet apology I have also learned a
> valuable lesson. I'm sure you're on the edge of your seat anxiously
> anticipating this revelation. Well here it is in a nutshell, I need
> to 'Chill the F*** Out!' Seems like. A simple task and for most, it
> probably is. I of course am not one of those people. Which is
> clearly why I was on my way to give the cute boy the good bye
> forever speech for the umteenth time, but before I could do that,
> during a brief conversation, I realized that I had taken his silent
> pause as a far, far, FAR more than it actually was. The thought that
> it was just a silent pause never crossed my mind. In fact my
> beautiful mind concocted roughly 5-6 scenarios all of which cast him
> the part of the asshole. Hence the ensuing emotional response and
> subsequent banishment that I had planned. After talking to him I had
> to admit (only to my star MFin' player that I had gone way too far).
> Lucky for me, I deal with my neuroticism within, so no one was the
> wiser about my mental dalliance. But it begs the question, would we
> be further down the road if I wasn't continually pulling back and
> alienating him because of the stories I made up in my head??
> Definitely something to think about. Well as I go off to accept my
> internal Oscar for my stellar work as a drama queen in the comedy/
> drama that is my life, I'll have to give that question some much
> needed pondering and overreact accordingly.