Thanks for the reminder

I listened to the words you said. I wanted them to be true so badly.
In fact I went to that place at that time with that outfit on, b/c I
knew it would peak your interest. But I thought the outcome would be
am enlightened you. I thought you would have realized the magnitude of
your loss and attempted toake reparations. While my heart was clinging
to the words, craving for them to have a renewed depth and meaning; my
brain was screaming halt, check the actions for confirmation. I'm glad
that instruction was given, b/c as always you came through to show
your real intent, which rarely comes into contact with your words. And
with that comes that good reminder of why it will never be anything of
depth. That rude awakening is given once again. The expletives want to
roll off my tongue. But I must remind myself of these things: You can
only be who you are. And I would be insane to think that would change.
Not that it's an impossibility, it's just not where you are. Though I
have said it on far too many occassions, I must give you credit for
making it true; this is a done deal. I accept that and I release you
from every expectation that I ever had for you. Along with that is my
forgiveness for the hurt you caused as well as blessings and prayers
for you. My love for you has officially moved from the 'In Love'
column to the 'love for humanity' column. I'm allowing the seed I've
sown to be transplanted on good fertile soil instead of this barren
unproductive soil. God bless you and good night......