So I can't be at all surprised that the men I have dealt with ended up taking advantage of all my attributes and never really offering any real reciprocity. Still, I believed their words even though the actions were so different. I know that I have value, but I guess now I must come to terms with being able to feel that I am deservant of someone of like value. It seems simple, but I still see myself being a self sabateur and not requiring what I bring. I
this is such a no brainer. For now, I resolve to fake it until I make it. So I am going to perhaps backburner E-harmony and any real dating prospects until I can work through this issue. One thing I can definitely say about this is, I am grateful that despite my mother being a subconscience example