I see me

Sometimes life teaches you a lesson that you feel you must share. Not in a valiant effort to share with the universe my great enlightenment, but more to come clean about a glaring error. I just realized a major mistake that I have made multiple times, suffered devastating pain and consequences from and yet had never even considered seriously, let alone attempted to learn from. This is truly a reminder that ignorance can definitely be bliss. But the first step is admitting I have a problem. So here goes my confession....
In my attempt to never be wrong, I tried (unsucessfully) to make my bad choices seem right by committing to them even when I KNEW how wrong they were. Seems benign when described in writing, yet clearly I have altered lives in the process. In my defense, it seemed that the only person that would hurt from these endeavors was me and I guess that was a more suitable option than owning up to my mistakes or admitting that I was wrong. Well, how wrong I was. How TRULY wrong I was!!! Now I understand why you shouldn't get serious on the rebound. I see myself for who I am for one of the first times in my life and I am determined to correct this major character flaw. When you know better, you do better.