Love Note

Dear CoCo_Savant,

I LOVE YOU!!!! I love you through all space and time. Mine is an unconditional love that can never diminish despite your actions or lack thereof. You are worthy of the greatest things that life has to offer and I will do everything in my power to see you obtain all your heart's desires. Your beauty is one that emanates from within, so as you've grown in spirit by way of love, you become increasingly more physically attractive. In fact you become prettier with each passing day. Your shape embodies all that is craved in a woman and your body holds the promise of pleasure that many will only dream of in this lifetime. Your conversations drip wisdom while being sufficiently peppered with humor and compassion. I love you beyond measure and I will never place another above you save God alone. Yet he dwells so strongly within you that loving you is loving Him simultaneously. Your consistent happiness is my ultimate goal and I will not rest until you dwell continually in the peace of God that surpasses all understanding. Wait no longer for the love you so desperately seek has already arrived and is here for you to partake of. Come, Taste and See....

All My Love,
All My Life,
Coco_Savant

The whole truth and nothing but

I told the truth, and now I'm sitting here wondering if you will come home tonight. You said I could do whatever I wanted and that you didn't care if I saw other people and perhaps you care so little for me that you really don't. But despite your words to the contrary I still believe that you love me and what man wants the women that he loves to be with someone else. Although I haven't been intimate with anyone, I did spend a little time behind your back. Honestly, I would cut everyone off if I thought it would mean their was the slightest chance of you and I being. But right now I'm operating under the fear that you will never want me and that is why the back up plan dude seems needed. I don't want to hurt you. I only want to sow a seed that will return to me what I am imparting in to you.
I want to call you but I'm afraid to run you farther away. In the words of Chocklate. Time Tells All.

That feeling in the pit

Right now I have an uneasy feeling in the pit of my stomach. Perhaps
it is from the soup that you made, but I suspect not. I think I hold
in my gut a bowl full of uncertainty about you and I. My friends say
unanimously that I should let it go. And clearly I could begin to see
other people even if we continue whatever it is that we have going.
But I would only be going through the motions pretending at best that
I have the slightest interest in being with someone else. In the words
of Oprah, what I know for sure is that I love you unconditionally
beyond all space and time. I would wait for you whole heartedly and
have no issue with it. I wonder if you are trying to push me away out
of fear that you don't deserve a love so pure and true. I also think
your self esteem has told you that I'm too good for you. But know that
you are me and I you, so there is no distinction between the two at
the core of who we are. I want to try to convince you to give it the
old college try. I hate to admit it, but I want to beg you too.
Ashamedly, I must admit that the thought of getting pregnant has
crossed my mind just so we could have some connection always. Luckily
my love for you would never allow me to betray you in that way. I am
trying so hard to be detached from the outcome of you and I. But
unfortunately, I breathe you, so it is difficult to imagine an
existence without you and I together. Love should be easier than this.
It should roll in gently and maintain it's position consistently with
lilttle or no rocking of the boat. So they say. And who exactly is
'they'. I have long since relinquished my pride but I hold that back
from you. Not because I think you would misuse the information, but
because I think it would be a burden to you. I say it inside so many
times in a day, but I LOVE you sooooooooo much. It consumes me to the
point that I question who I am at times. Yet I can't let go. I don't
want the world view of this situation. I only want what is in the
spirit for us. I only want to release the feeling in the pit of my
stomach.

A storm of uncertainty

My mind continually races to the what if's of what the future brings.
In that race I rush ahead but there is no visibility. The naysayers
cheer loudly that I have no chance of winning this race, which
discourages me far more than I'd like to admit. But I not they,
control my destiny already earmarked for me at the finish line. I am
the only hinderence and it is because I have changed my focus from
offering my best performance to worrying if others think I'm deserving
of victory. The words of the crowd have laden my load. Yet if victory
is not to elude me, I must drop the extra weight that I have picked up
along the way. I will then push myself beyond limits that even I knew
I could. But first I have to put one foot in front of the other and
focus on the task at hand. The reality that the race is not given to
the swift but to those that endure to the end must become my mantra.
And my ears must be closed to any thoughts that enter my mind to the
contrary. To sum it up. I must embrace each moment as it is and accept
that it is exactly as it should be.