Its Not Fair.....

Its not fair that I woke up in a good mood and someone else comes and drops their drama on me. Which in turn reminds me that I wouldn't even have to deal with this landscaper and his ish, about why its my fault he didn't complete the work when he said, if there was a man of the house. Everything is a constant reminder about my status as a single, single mother, single homeowner, single everything. And today I just wish I could be something besides by myself. A different title that doesn't designate me as a failure because I'm alone. That doesn't leave me to deal with the substantial aftermath that the he that was there before can completely and obliviously walk away from. A place where I am enough and I don't have to continue to make myself better for someone to accept me for who I am as I am willing to do just as he is. Its difficult to maintain a rosy disposition when there is no shoulder to cry on or person to hold you and tell you everything is going to be okay. But I can't be upset or hurt about that, because then I'm bitter. And of course that is exactly why I don't have a man.......I'm just saying, ITS NOT FAIR!!!!!